Tomorrow is my support group...

I am always ready to go to my support group each month! We inspire one another, several of us being artists, and we find ways to keep our hearts happy inspite of pain. I made some cute things this week, each needing to be tweeked, so I will post them when I do!

I also, took on a consignment, of doing about 25 wedding invitations for a dear friend, also a widow, who is finally remarrying after 11 years of singleness! Congratulations Buddy! He has given me complete freedom to use my artistic eye, using a color scheme of Purple, gray and white! Oh how the ideas are evolving! Any ideas for something of this kind?

Share with me! Ps--- I need some followers!

SNE

I WILL NOT BE AFRAID....

I  will not be afraid any longer... I just realized tonight, what a hold fear of being widowed meant to me... I was widowed at the age of 34... with three kids. He died in our backyard, after working all day and keeping the kids. He died unexpectedly... It created a fear in me.  I made a lot of mistakes learning how to be a single mom, and getting on with my life. I made millions of mistakes. Tonight, a friend told me on the phone, that she got a new car today... I was elated and when I got off the phone, I yelled to the bear aka my husband, that "Shelley got a new car today!"  No response. Then, I read an article in the paper, and I yelled out another thought... no response.  Suddenly, it hit me that he didn't answer me twice now, and I lunged from my bed, to find he wasn't even in the next room--- he was in the front toiletry, locked away!  This fear has sat in my heart, and I have said many times, I could not, will not be widowed again (like I have some control over it!). I can not live my life like this.


I will not be afraid. God got me through this situation once, and he will do it again, if the time comes! I will not be afraid and quit letting my heart jump in fear when my husband doesn't answer! 


Father, I give you this fear... please diminish it and take care of me. Remove all fears. In your hands I rest this. Amen!

Behold, God is my salvation; I will trust, and not be afraid: 

for the LORD JEHOVAH is my strength and my song; he also is become my salvation. 

This is one of my happy places... Bentley with his fresh haircut... Cute huh?

Got new page protectors and stuff today to organize UM stamps:

I generally, am a person that thinks outside the box... I got some page protectors, cd holder pages, as well as business card pages to put into my huge notebooks to save my stamps in... I am trying to figure how to organize them... Animals, Alphabets, Backgrounds, etc... or what? Any ideas, anyone?

Please!

Day after Valentines...

I am sitting, needing to get things done. Washed some laundry. Ate some chocolate. Made some phone calls. Found out the post office is closed today! Sigh! I think its the day after Valentines, and I am deflated. I shared with the bear how I felt about Valentines... and he cried. I hate when he cries cause I love him so much, that when I hurt him, even in sharing my truths, I hurt from so doing. What's a girl to do, when I spent a year in counseling trying to figure out how to just be... and not worry about other's opinions, and to let go... I had to tell him the truth!

I think I will go hit up Michaels and see what they have on clearance after Valentines!

Shelley

Happy Valentines Day... or as my tongue would say, HAPEPENFYCALENTEINS DAYT

YES! Today is one of those fibromyalgia days, when words come out wrong... but I hope my marinating steaks come out right--- oh if you could see my backspacing even! It's a fibro-fog day!

I went to Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory--- since the snow is nearly gone, the roads are clear again, but the WIND is tossing cars off the road! I made it there to buy one box of chocolates for James, 6 chocolate dipped strawberries for me and Danny, 24 cherries double dipped in chocolate for Barb, a bag of chocolate raisins, and hence, one piece of Mountain Toffee to eat on the way home! SIGH! So much chocolate... ummm-mmm grrreat!

Danny, being a typical country boy, bought me a card, and... a bag of Brach's chocolate stars... When I frowned, he said, "I know, I should have bought Lindts for you." I didn't say a word. Later he asked if I were going to eat them, and I said no, I would take them back, and get my Lindts--- the look on his face told the story! He got them on CLEARANCE!!! 

Is this the same man who let me buy over $200 in papers a few days ago? I know... I may seem greedy, but you. do. NOT. buy. chocolates for valentines. off. the. clearance. aisle!!! OMG! Do I have a right to cringe at this or am I being selfish? He knows better... I ALWAYS, and I mean ALWAYS talk about Rocky Mountain, and Choxie and Lindt chocolates!!! 

If he didn't buy all that paper, would you think differently than your opinion you hold now? I thought so! GROWL!!!!

 

Men are from Mars!!!

Thinking outside the SQUARE box...

I wondered, at an odd moment, in the routine of getting ready for bed, with toothpaste in my mouth, if those cute, little kids' tattoos would work on paper, kind of like a rub on!? The kind you wet down, lay on the skin, and let them slide off... My kids had tons of these years ago, getting them in sunday church, in the old toy (gum) machines from the mall. I went looking on ebay, and bought some that were nearing expiring, and paid $5.00 for 144 of them--- and guess what...

• They
• worked
• just 
• beautifully...
• OMG 

So, I went buyer crazy and have so many tattoos coming in, I can't wait to share pictures... Some of you ladies have inspired me, and now, I want to return the favor! Come on... Let's share ideas! Esp., ones where you think outside the SQUARE box!!! Think piercing, and glitter, and tattoos! See my first one, here:

Now, the question is, should I stickle this butterfly or not?